Wednesday, December 31

The New Year ;D

Wednesday, December 31 0
if you msn with me a lot, youd know how awesome my ;D is



the joy is in my hand.
We are no born happy, we use happiness to avoid sadness

BOOM!!!!

Happy New Year!
2008 was awesome!
2009 is gonna be a surprise!
right on time!

BOOOOM

Monday, December 29

Resolution (yes, its different)

Monday, December 29 0
December, the climax of things, good and bad.
Though honestly i never liked December.

Other than Christmas and the month that
a lot of gatherings are made.... nothing else
makes me liking December.

Its always so saddening..... Crap. I'm crapping.
I cant help the people who is saddened because of
the reaper.... for that i'm sad myself....
bad memories are coming back....

Ok to the main reason of this post!
Tag, its all Jiyn's idea =3=

Rules
1. Write your new year resolution
2. There must be at least 4
3. Tag at least one others

Resolutions

1. Stand on a glass floor for 5 minutes or run on them for 30 sec
(so? i'm scared standing on them)

2. Do more sports
(pfft, i doubt it but i'll make them happen)

3. swear less
(well i did it last year, so now for a further upgrade!)

4. more traveling!
(well, if i'm lucky)

5. improve my arts
(shouldn't be too tough...)

6. know the difference between quite and quiet
(I always spell the latter one...)

7. play my guitar again
(gotta find myself a good song first...)

8. stand up straight
(hit me if i slouch!)

9. study more
(if you guys notice, its on no.6 cause i hate studying >_>)

I tag everyone there is to be tagged.
Do this tag if you love me!
(ugh, saying that makes me sick. Like... opening expired sardine cans)

signing out

Saturday, December 27

Under The Scarlet Sun

Saturday, December 27 0
under the scarlet sun,
it shines and burns,
it burns with happiness,
it burns diligently.

the black part of the heart,
blocking that scarlet sun,
knowing not to accept,
but to throw and run.

have it not understand?
it is pain.
what is there to ask?
that is pain.
can it bleach the black?

helping the downed heart,
but forgetting the mirrored self.
owh how the world turns and leaves none...

Friday, December 26

Resolution

Friday, December 26 0
hmmhmm
i know everyone knows what are these.
And i'm pretty sure most dont do them >_>
i ask you guys make one... NOW!!!!

I'm not sure why but i find making resolutions are fun.
Jiyn says
"It's always nice to aim for something"

hmmhmm. I totally agree to that.
so... make one!!!! do them, its like a self upgrade thing. @_@
Ask your friend to bitch slap you if you break your resolutions.
Pain is the best medicine. lololololol

thats all for now
I got 10 in mind. i'll add more when i thought of more.
yohohohoho. It can be silly really so i recommend you
guys make one yourself!

signing out

Wednesday, December 24

Its Called Privacy....

Wednesday, December 24 0
Story? Short one, no intentions what so ever.
I know i've been writing them...
a lot of them. Holy crap i cant believe it myself.

Owh shut up.... Just shut up no more.... Damn this is unlucky.
Nononono. What the hell has happen? A good friends of mine,
like a quiet nut that suddenly burst out an awesome goodness.
It's a good change.... NOT!

Quiet she was, now? The girl that has all the goods. Gossip, rumors,
urban legends? Ask her. She knows it all. But thats the problem really.
We're such good friends when she was quiet. Well we still are actually.
We shared secrets, a LOT of secrets. I trusted her truly and she does
too.... But now? Aiaiai.... I just dont feel safe.

Our little talks together, she'll tell them to everyone. Even the smallest
like that i have a cat. I'm okay with that.... but not ones that i told and
trusted her with all my heart. She has no bad intentions i know, but it
is called privacy with a reason.

She started to share the things that i only tell her. Eventually even the
crush i had on know that i had a crush on her. I need to change her. Not back
to the quiet girl, but for a better change....


I'll stop there for now.
Signing out

Wednesday, December 17

Free Land!

Wednesday, December 17 0
*audience claps*
hey folks how are you doing.

on the 12th, i went to bangkok which is in thailand.
notice the title? alrighty, its time to use that unused
brain of yours for simple maths

Thai = Free
Land = well... Land
Thus,
Thai+Land = Thailand = Free Country

Bet you didnt know that huh?
well if you do just shut up and let me sound smart for once.
Anyways, Bangkok is quite nice.... well for shopping
I honestly never knew it was so advanced. I mean, yeah i knew
it was advanced but not THAT advanced.

Anyways the trip is right after Carmen's and during prom.
so i didnt go prom, meh doesnt matter. Next year would be a lot better
and as others says, more proper.

anyways, the plane was due to Bangkok at 6.00am so we got there at 5.00am
and i got up at 4.00am... not bad huh
it's a 2 hours trip from LCCT and i didnt even notice time flew really.
I was there listening to music then BAM! the attendance crew ask me stop my music.

The airport.... well nothing to say about it since its not that attractive >_>
First thing we do when we got there is get our room and straight to shopping.


My Cousins + Siblings, our hotel was right beside the train which is quiet
convenient.... Or so we thought. You better off in the taxi if youre
in a big group (mine was 9) cause it wouldve been cheaper.
Getting around Bangkok isnt that hard since their public transport
is quiet excellent.

Bangkok doesnt have much to offer in terms of culture and tradition and
the shops are mostly for the ladies (clothes, shoes, bags, blablabla)
The gundams there are owh my god >_>
its like double the price of ours in Malaysia
but you guys dont care do you?

Owh the people there is quiet friendly, they greet you like anytime everywhere.
So thats a plus too i guess. I honestly didnt know that the Siamese looks like
chinese.... i thought they had more of a malay or indon look but i was wrong.
They mostly look like Chinese. I couldve been fooled.


A performance i saw at the mall "Siam Paragon".
Cant really see them? Wear glasses >_>
Yohohoho, the violist is quite attractive.
And yes Steve, i'm pretty sure this one never had sex change.


The next day we went on a boat trip which honestly wasnt
very interesting.... but great sights of the locals though.
The village is of course, on water similarly to what we have
here in Malaysia.

Owh, I almost forgot. They have one.... err... ethnic(?)
that I find quiet interesting. The day you were born is important.
Each day has a their own color ... I'll list them out

Sunday - Red
Monday - Yellow (^^)
Tuesday - Pink
Wednesday - Green
Thursday - Orange (@_@)
Friday - Blue
Saturday - Purple (>_>)

They put it on their car plates, write their name on them, etc.etc cause
they believe if they dont, misfortunes would happen. So you can see
dudes wearing green if their birthday is on the Wednesday.
Mine is green.... i like green... but i like yellow more T-T
ahh well.... YAY COLOURS!!!

Owh we went to Chatuchak. Its like a market that is full of stuffs...
Mostly tee's though

tadaa~~ see what i bought there, weird stuffs!
my cousin laughed at it though cause it looks like cereal.
>_> thanks a lot but i love it none the less.
Too bad i lost my Japan =_="


Owh, you can also see random elephants on the street of Bangkok

Last day, we went to the floating market, the thing that makes
Thailand special to the world. It's not in Bangkok however. But,
there was one in Bangkok around 30 years ago. It's no more now.
So If you guys wanna see the Floating Market, you have to take a taxi
there, its a 2 hours drive from Bangkok.


"Arr, we're gonna raid the street marker. I mean market"


hmm... nice view really... but no tech stuffs =3=
pfft

well then i left and reached home around.... 9 or 8...
yeah it was nice.

so i hope youd enjoy Bangkok too
signing out

Tuesday, December 16

*Cross*

Tuesday, December 16 0
cross what?
owh yeah,
cross on the dates of someone's birthday.
Yay *claps*

anyways,
its 11th for Cass's
and 12th for Carmen's
owh lol got 3 c's this month.
figure out the last one yourself

anyways, Carmen held a dinner to celebrate
hers which is on 11th. That's before prom and
before the date i went to Bangkok. So i didnt
get to hang around till the last minute...
ahh well. Doesn't matter.

It was.... rowdy i guess.
lots of talks here and there,
laughters around tsk but i cant say
it lasted long, tsk tsk tsk.

and.... thank you J.X.....
you know who you are @_@

signing out

Sunday, December 14

A Journey Of Self Discovery

Sunday, December 14 0
I'm sorry to say but...
yeah more wall of text.
So sorry guys but i cant help it.
Would update about other stuffs soon. Yes i got
stuffs to update on. *thumbs up*

I went to a journey....
I have traveled more than the greatest explorer.
I traveled to the bottom of my heart.
The bottomless heart.... an abyss.
Well... at least that what i think.

You can know others really easily....
You can talk, give opinion, get opinion or even hear little
bits and pieces of rumors....
But.... what about talking about yourself?
How can you know yourself?
How do you know yourself?
How do you answer them?

I've been blinded that i never saw that the answers
was right before me. Who I am.
The answers was in my heart, not from the others.

What do they know about me other than what
they saw, hear, or acted. None.
The hardest part is being yourself really.

"Owh, just be yourself"
How is myself?
They can tell.... but you wonder some more...
What about the things that they don't tell?
How do you proof it doesn't exist?
Who can answer it other than yourself?

The truth.... You can say you're finding it.
But maybe you're running from it.
How do you tell that you're not running from it?
The truth from your own heart hurts a lot more than
what others can tell.

Library... that's where books with words of wisdom collects.
My heart.... is a library.
I've been looking through it finding through every book
for the answer to truth. It's gotta be one of them.
But how sure am I?
Maybe the truth has been calling me from afar and I just
told them to shut up and go as I'm looking for the truth....

Ahh well...
Whats done is done.
That journey is no more.
There was a lot of sadness and pain.
of course, through all that i found happiness and love.

Maybe, just maybe.
Those sadness makes the happiness more true

signing out

Wednesday, December 10

This Is Getting Me Nowhere

Wednesday, December 10 0
ok another story..

long ago.... in a deep, dark scary forest....
ok you know what, screw this shit.
i hate thrillers, they suck >_>

anyways, i've not blog for so long and i've not
blog a lot of events.... i just don't feel like it.
Gonna get the feel back... soon >_>

Owh, i bought my text books at school already, so if youre there,
look on the table for a drawing of a cat. Say hi to it.

Going Bangkok on 12th, sorry Shaun no prom =/
and Twilight is everywhere.
God. No. Twilight.
Why vampires? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Sunday, November 30

This Blog Need Pics >_>

Sunday, November 30 0
you know what?
after browsing my own blog i just realized something.
I made a damn a lot of post with only words and no pics
WALL OF TEXT!!!11!1!Shift+1!!1!
>_>
wth?!??!!!
I'm turning to some.... essay loving super book worm nerd D=

I need to put pics!!!
any pics!!!
a pic that is badass!!!!


AWWWWW YEAH!!!
Strike Noir!
damn now i feel all geeky now >_>
sheesh >_>
better think of something new and fast

You guys should seriously learn this...



ITS EDUCATION OF THE 21ST CENTURY!!!
HOLY MOTHER!!!!!!

Thursday, November 27

Unlike The River

Thursday, November 27 0
yeah another one i just thought up...
another what? another story.
yaharharhahr

i donno, it feels wrong if i dont update my blog
(though i know not many people reads it >_>)
well whatever. i just like it.

do remember this is purely fictional.
especially you huamin >_>
ok, lets get it rolling~~~

Monday, 17 Nov
it was a good morning. brushed my teeth and bath. I was excited of the day which strangely i usually dont. I got a new job. A job i longed and loved. A comic artist.... assistant comic artist to be exact. though its a rough start, its still a start. Went there by train since the place is near the train station. There.... i saw her.

I sat there waiting for the train... alone. Nobody else was there but then the loneliness was broken by somebody.....a woman. Of an angelic figure in my eyes, one descended from the heavens. I thought that she must be blessed by the god. Though she might not be as beautiful as a few i know... to me, she was perfect. A real angel. My heart was pounding fast though i have this strong feeling this beautiful woman had a beautiful soul.

I sat there, quietly... somehow without realizing it, i stare at her. When she give a glance to me, i looked away. I was scared.... i was shy.... i didnt know what to do. For a solid 10 minutes, I didnt do anything except sit and kept quiet. And when the train came.... i went in leaving her behind. I was saddened.

Tuesday, 18 Nov
I'm ready. Ready to confront her... but how? As i sat and thought through breakfast, i thought of it.... paper. Paper aeroplanes. I didnt have enough confidence to havea mouth to mouth conversation. I packed some and went to the train station.

At the same time, she came again. At the same spot she sat and again... alone. On a piece of paper, i wrote to ask that can we get to know each other. I folded it into a paper aeroplane and threw it at her. It flies under the guidance of nature's wind and fall right on her lap. I sat quietly and waited for her response. Was that good? What will she respond? What will she think of me? All those thoughts flyed through my head and as my mind flew, a respond in the form of paper aeroplane came to me.

"Sure, why not. I'm Melanie" and from there, spark a conversation through paper aeroplane. I learned a lot about her and as i expected... she has a beautiful soul. A gift from above i thought. And then the train came again, cutting our conversation and ended the day.

Wednesday, 19 Nov
The next day, I got up early and the first thing that came to my mind was her. I dressed exceptionally well and i waited at the train station earlier than usual. And suddenly i noticed not long after I waited. She threw a paper aeroplane. "giggles, why are you dressed like that today" and again our conversation continued on... like the river. It keeps connecting day after day. The unbreakable river... or so i thought.

As the train came. She threw me the last paper aeroplane.... And there encrypted a poem.

The end of time is near,
Unspoken voices will be known,
When the sun rises tomorrow...

I didnt understand it at first but there i sat and think.... End of time? Unspoken voices? Tomorrow?..... does that mean the the river shall be cutted off? Does that mean that Father Time has not given us another chance? I refuse to believe it and skipped work. When i thought about it... we never even spoke... not a word from the mouth..... and at the night i couldnt sleep. I kept thinking of the poem and as time goes by, sunrise came.

Thursday, 20 Nov
I ate breakfast and like went to the train station as like any other day. And I sat at the train station.... however... This time... i was alone... the sight of her never came to my eyes. Suddenly a woman came. A woman i not know who. She curiously came with a paper aeroplane. She saw and threw it at me... inside it wrote

When I came a sat at the bench... i saw you. I thought you were my guardian angel, a descendent of heaven and i knew.... you might be the one. To catch me when i fall, to walk with me when i'm alone, to speak to me to break the darkness in me and to be with me when darkness shrouds me.

I have a feeling it was you but i wondered how do i start a conversation with you? I was shy and i always look away from your sight. But it all stopped when you threw that paper aeroplane to me. We talked..... well wrote actually to each other and we get to know each other well... But that all
has come to an end....

I'm going to New Zealand and going to stay there for years i dont know how much. And... This would probably the last letter i can give to you. I dont have a phone, dont have an email or any
of those fancy gizmos they use.... And so.... I guess this would be the end for us...
I want to say...... I love you....

Signed, Melanie


As i finished reading. Tears came out of my eyes. It was the end....
I thought... no more... I have to go on..... But then i thought and acted quickly and chased after her friend. I wasnt too late. I ran and i stopped her friend and ask everything about her.....
I now know everything.... but it all happen too fast. I just cant accept it but i know i have to move on. I dropped my contact to her friend just in case. And i waited and waited....


Continued later~~~

yeah i know, bummer right?
or not >_>
ahh well.
Maybe i'll continue it one day... part 2! yeah
damn, one day i'll turn this into a comic...
yeah one day

Reporter Ali...
signing out~~~

owh if you guys are nice enough, drop a comment about it.
You can say you hate it too. no seriously.
yahrahahrhar

Tuesday, November 25

Owh Noes!!! Wall Of Text!!!

Tuesday, November 25 0
tagged by ann~~~

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time : 9:28 why the hell are they asking this for?
Name : Ali Iskandar
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 3
Shoe size : 10? is this to know whos bigfoot or something?
Height : 180? i donno, never really cared
Where do you live : Earth. Awesome place
Favorite drinks : Coffee and Carbonated Drinks
Favorite breakfast : Bread and Cereal
Have you ever been on a plane : yeap
Swam in the ocean : yeap.... is the kiddy pool counted?
Fallen asleep in school : yeap, i try not to though
Fell off your chair : yeap, theres always imaginary chair for me
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : never. i rarely use the phone. i use them if somebody text or call me >_>
Saved e-mails : yeap, more like too lazy to delete them.
What is your room like : small but messy, gonna clean it
What's right beside you : cups and calculator
What is the last thing you ate : rice

Ever had...
Chicken pox : gotta have them
Sore throat : rarely but yeah
Stitches : yeap. dont ask.
Broken nose : nope. its too hard to be broken
Do you believe in love at first sight : yeah. is that good?
Like picnics : i guess... depends really
Who was the last person you danced with : hmm.... i donno?
Leng lui? i rarely dance with people.
Last made you smile : my brother
You last yelled at : rarely yell... cause my voice is always loud. yahrahahrahr

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : umm.... nope. so far.
Kiss anyone : never
Get sick : sick of you. kidding~
Talked to an ex : never had one
Miss someone : yea... sadly =/
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : used to, a racoon doll. donno
where it is right now though
What's under your bed : books and toys
Who do you really hate : nobody really
What time is it now : 9:45 whats the point of asking? >_>

Randoms :
Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now : yeap...
Q : Do you have any siblings : duh! i just answered you!
Q : Do you want children : who doesnt?
Q : Do you smile often : everyday, everytime, anywhere, anyone
Q : Do you like your hand-writing : love them but the teachers dont >_>
Q : Are your toenails painted : nevaaaar
Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : the one at shops
Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : shirtless. no seriously.
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : at ampang point with family
Q: I can't wait to : get a lot of things of my mind
Q: When did you cry last : i dont know.... try not to
Q: Are you a friendly person: they call me so, so i guess yeah =/
Q: Do you have any pets : cats.... 7 of them... does my brothers count?
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now : i dont know.... having fun probably
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? : haha nope~
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on? : never. i dont watch tv. i'm not your average teen. yaharhahrhar
Q: What are you doing right now? : breathing
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window? : yeap. i should tell you the story one day
Q: Can you handle the truth? : i love it. especially when some tell me what they hate about me. i know, weird.
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father? : i donno. both? mum's more casual though
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of? : no idea =/
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved? : you mean crush? more than 1 >_>
Q: Do you eat healthy? : yeap. only the main course though. yahraharharh
Q: Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: i dont have an ex yet >_>
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : no @_@
Q: How often do you go to church?: i dont go to church. i'm muslim! lol
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : depends... usually i keep them to myself sadly =[
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: i think loud?
Q: Are you confident?: verily
Q: Favorite Quote: Dont Be Boring
Q: Things I was doing 10 years ago.. : bath

Q: Things on my to-do list today.
1. finish my gundams >_>
2. finish my games
3. get a few things of my chest ._.
4. stop thinking. ok that sounded stupid >_>
5. clean the mess around me

Q: 5 snacks I enjoy..
1. twix
2. m&m
3. fries
4. cookies
5. chocolates, any kind

Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire.. (By Order)
1. make houses and school for the poor
2. build hospitals for the poor
3. make malaysia better
4. save them and take out 500+ for me to have fun on
5. build my own house. it would be quiet small with basic needs inside. INDEPENDANT!!! (however the hell you spell it)


Q: 5 of my bad habits..
1. Lazy to bath
2. always at the comp
3. sleeps late
4. thinks too much
5. really lazy

Q: 5 places I have lived in..
1. home
2. home
3. home
4. home
5. yeah you guessed it. home

Q: 5 jobs I've had..
1. student
2. none
3. none
4. none
5. none

Q: 5 people I tag..
no idea =/ i think everyone has done it

Saturday, November 22

THIMUN.... It's only one letter to TIMUN!

Saturday, November 22 0
Ahh....
THIMUN...
i miss it already...
nice place,
nice people,
nice stuffs,
nice hot gi.... gundams! yeah thats it!
definitely an unforgettable experience!
Sorry kids, no picture this time.
I didnt know you can use the camera in the conference
room till the last day. Yahahrhahrharharh.
First day was of course.... boring.

2nd day... boring but it was the perfect time to
get to know a lot of people. I talked for a really long
time... actually i talk through the whole thing.
There was so many that was working on the reso that
i cant really do anything except chat with the others.
I've met wonderful people.... well if theyre not
wonderful they wont even be there in the first place right?
My jaws felt like it could fall of when the whole thing finished.

3rd day.... more lobbying.
this time though, our reso was screwed so i didnt chat with
the others but rather, discuss about the reso.
But..... during the conference.... i got kinda bored...
well not all of the conference, only the ones i didnt do research on.

4th day..... It felt like the last day already. A friend of mine
i just made (quiet cute. Hope she doesnt read this) left for NZ....
=/
At night there was a party... with dancing. I guess this is how
they dance at clubs. Jumping around >_>
ahh, whatever.

5th day..... i cant really say much but we left on the 5th
day....

I donno why but i dont feel like blogging about THIMUN...
maybe cause theres no picture so its less fun =/
But... none the less, I love the experience... really.

Missing some of them already... damn is this how it
feels like to miss somebody?... not a very nice feeling.
Hmm.... maybe next time i'll get into detail... but not right now.

yaahharhahrra.
I'm missing HonYee's party right now =/
too bad, that i cant go.
No further comments >_>

reporter ali...
signing out

Sunday, November 16

The Unsuspecting Hearts

Sunday, November 16 0
Since theres not much to do during the school holidays
(or at least, not yet) i'm gonna write a short story lah...
Actually i should be doing research but you know me...

Just cant stand reading through long words in the internet.
Yaharharhar. So lets get the show on the road.


It was a dark morning, it was raining slightly. I was packing my stuff so
it can be kept in the basement as my room is getting full and old items
was piling in my room. The whole time i was packing, images of the past
flew through my head.

I finished packing. The moments still flew by my head. "Damn,
will this ever stop?" without realizing it, tears streamed down out
of my eyes. I tried to stop it, but it keeps flowing like the never broken
river. It keeps flowing. I remembered. The good times that i went
through, the bad times i cried to. It all came in my head.

There at the corner, i saw my phone. I wanted to call, but the
question is, who? The question remains the same as time continue
to march on. I wanted to call, but to whom do i feel most comfortable.
My mind was set to a name. Somebody I care dearly. We were close,
closely to lovers. But lovers, we are not.

It was only a button click away but then stopped. I thought.
She's beautiful, she's popular, she's smart, she's the best female
student in the school. Why would she bother about me? I'm
not good looking, I'm not very known, I'm not very smart and
almost ranked bottom out of the whole form.

There was a world of difference that i finally came to realize between
us. She knows a lot more wonderful people, why stick to the lower
ones? I threw my phone to the floor. Just a small toss that can barely
kill an ant. I went to the corner and again. I cried in pain.
As the moon started to appear. My tears stopped. My phone rang, It was
her. I picked it up "What the hell do you want." I tried to
act tough to hide my feelings. She said "Hey, wanna go hang out? meet
me at our usual spot ok?" and she hanged. I barely had any chance to
say anything.

The usual spot.... It is at the top of the hill with a lone cherry tree. I ran
there, the moon was bright and spirited, unlike my soul. I came earlier
than i thought, i waited for a while with thoughts of her. I wondered why
does she want from me? Hanging out at later night. My thoughts were
shattered as i heard broken branches on the ground. "You there?".
I knew in an instant that it was her. I looked back, she bought a
basket of light food. Bread, milk, cookies. It was a small picnic.

We sat there, quietly. Eating the food while we're at it. The silence
was broken as she suddenly sang a song. A song both she and I familiar
with.

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end


The night was suddenly full of music. At the end of the song,
I couldnt help but continue on...

I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone swept you heart away
From the look upon your face I see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone


As I ended it, tears flow out of my eyes. What are they
for, I do not know. As i turned, in her eyes,there was tears
as well. For what she does not know. As I came near her,
she sang a line of the song

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone


Without thinking, I sang out another song

I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
That you despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...


Under the moon, under the star, we kissed as
the heaven became our witness. Love was born. Time
continue to move on. We slept under the heavens. Under
the cherry tree that we made vow that our love shall last
as long as god allow it.....

The End....

thank you for reading it till the end.
Really i mean it. I appreciate it a lot.
whats hidden in the story?
figure it out yourself >_>
so whatcha think?
nice?
bad?
you donno?

owh, i provided the song in my blog in case
you wanna listen to it too.
yaharharahr

owh yeah, inspired by Enn (^^)v

thats all for now,
Reporter Ali
signing out *salutes*

Thursday, November 13

Poetic Me? What Has The World Come To?

Thursday, November 13 0
yeah kinda funny.
I donno why but i feel like doing a poem right now.
Comments are not needed.
I dont care if theyre good or bad.
Dont know if theyre sad or happy thing.
And certainly dont know if this'll help anyone.


The Hands That Never Stop

My mind flew away,
over and over again.
Without realizing it,
tomorrow is now today.
Ahh... Father Of Time have moved the clock,
Not allowing my soaring mind to return.
Time goes around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers

Will it ever come back?
Will it ever be happy to be back?
Ah, time. Going around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers

If I can buy time just for a few seconds,
Those few seconds shall be the seconds of unequal value.
Such is time, to be there, to be believed, but cannot be seen.
A hidden enemy, and a hidden ally.
It continues to go around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers

Ahh memories. The only way to keep time.
But being glass fragile, paper thin. Can it last?
The force of time shall shatter it one day.
But how, when and why. Nobody knows.
And time mercilessly go around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers

Such is the cruel fate of human being.
To be blessed by god, to be taken away by the demon.
The demon awaits us all at the end of time.
But when is that? Nobody knows
as time goes around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers

365 days in a year,
8765 hours in a year,
525948 minutes in a year,
But how many years are there in this world?
To infinity as we all thought.
Because time goes around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers



That was my poem...
As I type, when will i stop?
That is determined by me because
time does not care about me.
As goes around and around
but when does it stop? It nevers


Reporter Ali,
Signing Out
*salutes*

Sunday, November 9

Saturday, When Nights Are Young and Tomorrow = Hate

Sunday, November 9 0
ahh... yes Saturday.
So many things, never was there time.
Too bad, theres only one me =/

Owh well, i was suppose to have about... what?
4 plans for the day?

Nancy's, Muimui's, Open Day and Concert.

clashes!
Muimui's VS Open Day
Nancy's VS Concert

like seriously man, why cant you guys do
on beautiful Sunday? =_="
ahh well....
Too bad, i didnt go to Muimui's and Nancy's =/
firstly, i dont have transport for Muimui's and i kinda promised
to help open day. I'll tell you something. The Open Day was so quiet...
Dickson and Yusri said its their first time coming there through all
the years theyve been at the school. >_>

cant go Nancy's cause i had concert, so told her i cant come.
Then, its not compulsory for me to go to the concert.
Like.... a BIG =_=" to this. 1... 2...
=_="""""""""""

hmm... feel kinda lazy cause its like a 2 thing post.
>_> i know, not a very good blogger i am >_>
now on to open day~~~
at open day... yeah it was quiet,
there were a lot of kids though. Like really a lot.
i felt like a pedophile there. Kids coming around and play at the
Chem booth. And they only assaign one guy to do it >_>
awww man!

The food was somehow better than usual school days ones...
I was there at the booth with Yusri and MouChuan.
Olivia went running all over. Marcus and Ann in the hall,
and Syaff was doing taekwondo..... Owh of course some prefects
around doing their job.... but it was so quiet....

Then the afternoon shift >_>
Time flies for us pedophiles >_>

The only ladies there =3=
Owh plus Ann =_="


Now, Year End Concert.
Took me a while to know whats it called...
i kept refering it to "the Broadway thing" >_>

I was from Ampang Park and i dont wanna be the
typical Malaysia. (no offense.... wait, OFFENSE!!!)
Always starts or comes late... but i came late anyways...
traffic... i know, same old lame excuse....
But at 7.30, the concert didnt start yet..... typical =3=
Reached there around...... 7.50 i think?

saw a few people hanging about... thought it didnt start yet then
when the school hall was withing my view... i saw some moving
gown with some not tall, not dark and not handsome dude moving about.

Then i ran ran ran ran and i stopped at the entrance.
Then i noticed that its Michelle and Syaff, (took me a while to notice its Syaff)
Owh then i stand there, catching my breath and Carmen called me.
And then i saw Rebecca.... didnt think she'd wanna come.... She hate kids >_>

Ahh Michelle.... finally you look hotter for once.
Syaff looks smart and more.... urr... dashing.
Must be the mask.

There were quiet a few nice performance...
Of course for good for kids. I never did this kind of thing
when i was younger >_>.... ahh youth
(damn, did i just sound old?)

Andandandand
Carmen's brother plays the saxophone.....
mmm... saxy


I like this one, donno why. I just got the feeling
from this dance.... hmm..
Anyways, the little kid on the left looks quiet
hot... for a kid >_>
damn, this pedoness must be from the the open day >_>
but you know whats the bad part about the kid?
supposedly shes Rebecca's cousin... yeah i know.
What a world of difference >_>
GWAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

you know you miss the game times.
So heres one for the moment being!
Spot the Syaff and Mich!

Well thats rather easy isnt it?

Well kids, its time for story time!
After the concert...
The (not) tall, (not) dark, (not) handsome guy,
which is the phantom, swept the milady Michelle
off her feet to give a runaway with her.

But then, he just though....
"Why stick to one, one you can have more?"
Then he came back and took off his mask. Making
his handsome level.... decrease.
Run off to the stage with milady Michelle on his hands and
swoop over and get more ladies.

"Aww yeah! being a pimp rulez! with a Z!"
...... this is what we call womanizing kids.
Dont do it. =3=

Of course, i wont lose =3=

except the guy on the far right >_>
I've no hubby (lol at the word hubby)


ladies of the night. They camwhore awfully a lot...
no, seriously. A lot. So many, my cam vibrated from
focusing too much. lololololololololololol

doesnt matter. Went Old Town later for some coffee of course.
There was my stupidity (yes, i'm self concious) in the way.
Made Yang, Shaun and Benny and the ladies waited for a solid 25 minutes
We stared at a rock and got entertained by it....
Yes, this is serious shit. I apologize for my stupidity....Seriously.

And at the old town.... yeah drink and chat like what
they all do at cafes till the new day arrives. Went home with Shaun
at..... 12 i think? yeah sounds right enough. I finally know that
an awful lot of people live in Ampang....
*thinks about possibilities of carpools*

Owh yeah, kinda forgot. Benny got some insane tastebuds.
That is all
Ahh well. Thats good i guess, until next time.
See ya real soon!
signing out!

*winks*

Tuesday, November 4

Thoughts Not Existed

Tuesday, November 4 0
Theres practically nothing to do at school anymore.
Its so boring~~~ *rolls*

Why cant they make after finals activities? *rolls*
I'm so bored, i'm just gonna post random pics that i donno
when i took with random thought that suddenly pops out.
Roll the camera boss!


I think it looks cool. I love physics honestly.
It involves researches in space, time, dimension and
whatever that is related to this world. Fascinating.
The Kow
and The Cow

a guy i admire for his curiousity,
however the hell you spell it


I wonder if anyone actually took me seriously when
i say bad things about them, hope not. The remarks
are suppose to be really bad jokes =_="

If we give good remarks, its not good too isnt it?
We go all prasan or like put ourself down...
Gah, how do i explain this *scratches head*


Being emo is not that bad once in a while too.
It makes us think more of the world sometimes...
Well, for me anyways.

The truth can really be a slap in the face.
But its the truth, why deny it? Its there and will
stay there.

Sometimes you'll feel so restless knowing the truth.
Like a soldier, surrounded by a million enemies.
You'll feel loss, you'll feel like your hope is gone.
But to me, no matter how painful it is,
the truth can never feel so good.

How can we all be lonely?
theres so many people aroud
Its like OVER 9000!!!!!
(cookies to people who gets it)

Everywhere, theres bound to be someone.
Unless you go to a ghost town >_>

We cant know who we'll be friends be actually.
We can choose them, but we cant determine who will we meet.

Nonono, no peeking.


But in the end, we'll be together. Somehow.
Its just the strings of fate and time.
Ahh, fate, destiny. How strange can this world be?
Very strange, but also very interesting.

The wheel of time keeps moving on.
It keeps spinning, and spinning and spinning.
Time is so precious. Everyone has it, thats why not
many people appreciate it. Well thats what i think anyways.

In the end, no matter how hard you fall.
When you need that boost to help get up.
When you think hope is lost. Think again.
Look around. For those who love will be loved back.

So asked the ones that you love, to ask their
love back to get you on your feet.

Love is a burning thing
and it makes a firery ring
bound by wild desire
I fell in to a ring of fire...

I fell in to a burning ring of fire
I went down,down,down
and the flames went higher.
And it burns,burns,burns
the ring of fire
the ring of fire.

Johnny Cash ~ Ring Of Fire

Saturday, November 1

Muimui's Birthday

Saturday, November 1 0
yay! more birthdays!
Today is Muimui's birthday!
they go celebrate it on 11am but i wasnt there
at the time... i reached there at like.... 4pm?

I got a class that i dont wanna miss. Carmen called me
during it. Asked me to buy a cake which is quite hard
for me cause i never bought a cake for anyone =/

Owh well, theres a first for everyone. Lesse... bought
the cake at BreadTalk in pav... small cake for RM45.
Had a little heart attack at first but i guess its normal
for everyone else =/

Went up, rushed a bit and wala. The Red Box
(yay karaoke!) Went in, Carmen was waiting for me.
Or maybe the cake but doesnt matter. And they readied the
cake for some surprise. *lift the cake* crashes in. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
YAY!!!

The birthday girl with that one little candle

The one still karaokeing is like Farris, Aiza, Bee, Carmen,
Melissa, and of course the birthday girl.

Bee keeps swaying back and forth. looks so blur~

Well the thing didnt last for long so i didnt get to play that
much D=
owh well theres always next time i assume.
Later we walk around. Muimui go first then
Farris, Aiza and Mel.... so Carmen, Bee and I walk around
and chat chat chat chat chat... then Carmen left... and there
was 2..... So we went down to get some snack.

Ate chicken we did. and somemore eat and chat and laughs all around.
I waited with Bee to keep her company waiting for whoever
whos gonna pick her up... till... 7.30 i think =/
And i had a little lift in the car to the LRT station.
harhahrharharhar



I noticed how nice the night was today...
Guess muimui was lucky to have a birthday at such a beautiful night.
A lonely moon and a lonely star. How romantic.
Well how the story to put together is up to each of your
own imagination.
Until next time~
signing out~

Friday, October 31

An Open House Yet Again

Friday, October 31 0
yes, i'm gonna blog more of my friends at the other side.
(no, not heaven you dunce)
Just so you know, i posted 3 post in 1 day.
So browse through my old post incase you missed any.
Or just skip them.

so, Thursday, when i'm supposed to stay back.
But i didnt. Ann was having the bball tourney...
Heard it was bad, kinda felt sorry for her.
But lets not talk about sad things ok?

Anyways, Thursday, got an sms from the guy
i introduced earlier, got an sms from him that
a my so called "sis" got an open house.
So yeah, 2.30 at her house.
I can just bike there luckily. Havent biked for sometime
actually. And i packed my camera, ipod, phone and wallet
(actually its a purse, but used by me. a guy but who gives a damn?)

cycled cycled cycled.... surprisingly i got there when
"can i have this dance" finished. Thought it would be longer.
And there... it was so quite... i came quite late... or so i thought.
and then, Farah (sis) came out.

Went in... place is packed with girls (again) and not much guys.
Well, my guys lah. So i sat there, chat and drink till more came.
And!.... we sat there somemore and chat and drink again.
Again, only one guy came, the same guy. Yup.
So its more pimping action i guess. MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!

got bored after then we camwhored.
Ok Carmen i know what youre thinking. But my camwhore is
group type! D=
so yeah, pics.
The best part of any blog.

The house, really small but homely.
Its about... lesse... 10 cm more of my height?
No seriously. Its kampung, what'd you expect?


i saw this long mirror... suddenly my hands lift up.
I have no idea why did i do that. And people
around me got up and posed. ahahahahha
really weird.


Right, we start off with indoor photography...
but, got outside cause its more fun outside.



i copied the expression from somewhere...
but i forgot where... doesnt matter


At the end of the day, i realized the battery dried out pretty
fast... Then i noticed that the girls took quite a lot of photos
for their moral... owh well.


The chick of today,
When i was walking with her, you wont believe what
happen... A lot of guy thing easier said

God damn i hate them so much, i also notice that some
motorcyclist that go by us stares at us (her actually) as long as they can.

i feel kinda bad for girls to have go something like this.
I feel like giving them a can of whoop-ass action that
can make them kiss the moon back to thursday.
I'm seriously pissed! In the end, i followed her and waited for a while
till she get into a taxi. You know why lah.... dont tell her about this.
Not like she can find my blog huh? harharharhar


Will upload more pics later, cant find the wire to my phone...
But if you dont care, then dont come back *rustles rustles*

Tagged ~ Muimui 2

1. Post these rules before you give your facts:
2. List 8 random facts about yourself
3. At the end of your post, choose 8 people to tag and list their names, linking to them
4. Leave a comment on their blog and letting them know that they're tagged.

1) Likes yellow
2) a guy
3) likes to go out
4) walks, carpools and public transport as much as possible
5) likes to talk about things not relevant to anything
6) likes to smile
7) sings a lot lately
8) loves GUNDAM!!!!

tag?... urm....
so many people to tag.
i tag everyone on my list of links
except the one that has done this =d

Tagged ~ Ann, Its Over

Dear Andrea.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but You're a loser. I think I realized it when When your dwarf bit me In your closet and I saw you Sit on My John F. Kennedy-statue . I'm sure you're Senile enough to understand How awful I've felt. I'm returning Your love letters to you, but I'll keep Your photo as a memory. You should also know that I Told in my confession today about Our friendship.

In pain,
-Ali-

This was fun. I tag whoever wanna do it. Wanted to make a prank out of it but i just cant pull it off like Ann =_="


Dear (the last person who left a comment on your Journal).

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.


___12___,
-Your name-


1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister2.

2.Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal
X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Thursday, October 30

Eat In The Glory

Thursday, October 30 0
yes, we eat eat eat *dances*
its for... uhh.... those appreciating thingymajiggy.
They have a feast. Yup yup.

And today, i felt like the Reporter Ali again.
Cause, i became Carmen! no i didnt become a girl
lah you knockknock, i became the camera man there.
Yes, serious shit.

Some thought i was holding Carmen's camera... well thats
understandable isnt it. Same colour, same camera.
How did i got chosen?
well... was walking down the stairs, in front of the hall,
was about to get in then Madam Teh asked
"who the fuck has a fucking camera?! SPARTA!!!!"
.... ok she didnt say that lah, but wouldve been awesome.
I had one, so i told her. Then she asked to take pictures.
Not so hard to figure out huh?

And in i go, take photos. Since its not only friends inside, i took
every single one of them.... well... almost....
Anyways, pics time!


the ladies of the day. Nice ending. harharhar


If you look real closely, Dickson is waving
and Michelle is posing.


Syaff stopped his DS just for a nice quick pose...


And here we have... Eh? wtf?
Syaff why the hell are you there?
You too Mich!!!!


The Choral Speaking cheering thingy.
I looked like a drunkard bastard.


Spot my hand!!!.....
Ok that was stupid.
Its pretty damn obvious huh.

Well thats for this time events
Until then!
Reporter Ali
signing out!
 
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