121

I guess its a nice number to end things. Maybe 123 would be better... or not.
I've decided to open up a tumblr this time. Why? I don't know honestly.
Maybe i felt like i've needed somewhere else to run to and play around.

I've decided to see this old blog again just because i don't wanna forget.
I know I have very bad memory, even if i did try hard to remember things
just slip by like time. You wish it'll stay but you can't.

Life's a mystery and i'm sure you know it

http://baob.tumblr.com/

Invisible Curse

Tis is the curse of beauty,
to be judged skin deep.
To be played like a puppet
under the hands of an expert
actor, under the hands of
lust and the doll only to be
blind, deaf and dumb by
the actor.

Tis is the curse of wealth,
to be judged a plenty of things.
To be known of his wealth
and to be close off with hungry
alligators that bite off the gold
and spitting out the love, that is
act out and made out. Pitifully.

Tis is the curse of the kind heart,
to only be manipulated of them black hearts.
To be known as a modern slave
who follows the master's deeds
without question nor hesitation
and only blind by the grateful words
that means dust and sands.

Tis is the curse of being good,
Tis is the invisible curse.

You Are

honey lover
by Rachel Strobridge

you are the soothing hum
the grass stains on my jeans
the summer in my hair
the color in my cheeks
you are the constant wave
beating against my heart
the warm honey on my lips
the paint on my nails
you are the perfect dance
and a moonlit ride
the sticky vanilla cream
you are the flower in my palm
the reason I smile
the chills down my spine
you are more than you'll ever know
you are the love of my life

taken from hellopoetry.com

Ahh i love this petty poet.
How wonderful love is

Right, Where Did We End It?

So there's this little spot in my heart that feels all weird.
I wonder if i'm making that feeling up. I mean, It's
at my heart, how can an emotion affect my heart?
Questions in need of answers that leads to more questions.
Questions never ends, but answers are.
500 Questions to one answer, kinda unfair to me.

Why do you think? The brain
Why do you feel? The brain
Why do you remember? The brain
Why do you forget? The brain
Meh, Questions questions. A curse that hangs around man kind
since the beginning of time. We try to lift up the curse with answers
that need work and the curse comes lie on us again.
Ahh how wonderful the world is as the questions keep coming and
the answers keeps stopping.
Like the moon who keeps meeting the sun after hiding behind earth.
....Ok that maybe didnt make sense... but whatever.

My will might be dying, though you can't see it out on my body,
rest assure my soul is hurting and healing fast like friggin wolverine.
When the world keeps fucking you up,
you bring it down with strength of not the body, but the heart.
If life wasn't hard, it wasn't worth it.

Goodbye citizens of the world.
You have been a wonderful crowd, a beautiful crowd.
Goodnight

So Take A Look At Me Now

There's just... urm... err.... mm......

List Of Awesome

Awesome things you guys should have thought of doing but never did (and probably never thought of doing it and this actually an attempt for the longest blog post title in the history of mankind which i hope it will be although i know it won't be recognize but that's ok. At least i know i tried. Awesome)

1. Stare at the sky while lying on wet grass
2. Slide on your belly like a penguin at the bowling alley
3. Run around your house
4. Drink up a whole bottle under 30 second
5. Skip, not walk
6. High 5 everyone, anytime. Even those you don't know
7. Give cookies to everyone
8. Free hugs
9. Walk around blind folded with a walking stick
10. Hide under tables when trouble arises
11. Celebrate along with other's celebration
12. Scream out loud (especially in cafes)
13. Sing out load (especially in libraries)
14. Dance in the public (especially on the road)
15. Pluck a pretty flower beside the street
16. Breathe in with all your heart
17. Smile to security guards
18. Say thank you and smile to whoever that helped you (including cashiers who help you put your stuffs into the plastic bag)
19. Make funny faces
20. Enjoy life, because it only crosses you once
21. Remember number 20
22. Be yourself, cause everyone else is taken
23. Remember number 22
24. Live like you're dying, cause you really are dying with every second
25. Remember number 25
26. Keep wondering
27. Remember number 26
28. Don't be scared, just do it
29. Remember number 28
30. Lists cannot list you out

Love.

I laf you, Cathryn :D :D many many wubs for you! <3

Live Like You're Dying

live like you're dying?
quite the phrase and it'd be nice to actually do so.

cause i realize i am dying.
with every un-retraceable second pass?
yeah i'm sure as hell i am dying.
nites people of the world

Think Thought Think Though

i havent actually done that in a long time.
weird. i'm happier now than ever really.
but it seems i feel down as easily too.

like that stupid directly propotional law crap.
the easier it is for me to feel happy,
the easier it is for me to feel sad.

hi. i'm ali.
i'm like a coin with one happy side and one sad side.
theyre never on the same side.
my life has always been a tape recorder.
i'm just replaying it like mad
every single day.
every single fucking day.
at least i feel so.

nites people

When Ze Stars Arz Out

So at Jon's party, we celebrated at the pool.
(Happy Birthday Bitch!)

When i was alone in the pool,
(well not totally alone actually just less people)
I stared at the sky for a while, in the midst of a
sea of clouds, i saw one little star shining through.

Owh yeah its stars right? no biggie, it's always
in the sky all you gotta do is stop and stare.
Then I ask, how many actually do that?
and what are the chances of you seeing one here
in the big polluted city?

At 4 i stared again into the sky, now it's cloudless.
There was little dots in the sky, yes they're stars.
I was bedazzled for awhile and got reminded :
we're still someone small in the world,
even if we did something big

Optimist, Pessimist

I'm sure that everyone has heard of this before :
Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining.

Well i'll explain what it means anyways. It means that even a bad
thing has a good thing behind. It sounds so much easier than it's
actually done cause you know when the bad thing is right in your face,
you just can't help and stare back at the bad thing rather than looking
through the bad thing.

Here comes everyone's favorite kind of people--Optimists.
Owh hell yeah everyone will sure to know one or two of them.
They're those people who smile back at their troubles.
They're those people who don't think of consequences.
They're those people who are always on a positive side of the coin.
They tend to dream more and not get stuck into reality so much.
Huzzah!

YAY THEM! How can we not live with them?

Now then there's the other side of that coin--Pessimists.
Aww yeah you know them.
They're the people who always look at the bad side of things.
They're the people who thinks that the after effects.
They're the people who thinks the world will end without a cause.
Ok maybe not the last one but whateverlah.

Yeah see I think pessimist are kinda boring ya know and
pretty bad. They tend to take uncertainties comes out with
bad results. Ya know kinda like if there's this chick you like,
you wanna confess to them but them pessimist will think they'll
get rejected flat down and don't confess in the end.

In everything, there's bound to be good or bad answers.
It takes people with balls of steel to take up on that uncertainty
and brace the challenge. Those without balls will obviously
pass it on not "risking" anything to lose when they can gain too.

So grab life by the balls and kick it up high.
Take chances, ignore them doubts.
Well unless they can bring certain death and all.

Bright Eyes

i love how conor oberst always remind me that i'm not crying alone

Of The Hearts

For those who have found love,
I congratulate you.
May the love burn hotter than the sun,
lasts longer than the time,
more melodic than a bird's tune
and gets better with passing time like wine.
(i know, i'm exaggerating)

For those who lost love,
I'm sorry for you.
May your heart heals better in time,
may the experience make you stronger,
may you remember what it feels to love.

For those who haven't found it yet,
don't give up.
There's one for everyone and you haven't even
meet most of them yet,
do not give up on love.

Everyone loves, even if they dont look like one.