Think Thought Think Though

i havent actually done that in a long time.
weird. i'm happier now than ever really.
but it seems i feel down as easily too.

like that stupid directly propotional law crap.
the easier it is for me to feel happy,
the easier it is for me to feel sad.

hi. i'm ali.
i'm like a coin with one happy side and one sad side.
theyre never on the same side.
my life has always been a tape recorder.
i'm just replaying it like mad
every single day.
every single fucking day.
at least i feel so.

nites people

When Ze Stars Arz Out

So at Jon's party, we celebrated at the pool.
(Happy Birthday Bitch!)

When i was alone in the pool,
(well not totally alone actually just less people)
I stared at the sky for a while, in the midst of a
sea of clouds, i saw one little star shining through.

Owh yeah its stars right? no biggie, it's always
in the sky all you gotta do is stop and stare.
Then I ask, how many actually do that?
and what are the chances of you seeing one here
in the big polluted city?

At 4 i stared again into the sky, now it's cloudless.
There was little dots in the sky, yes they're stars.
I was bedazzled for awhile and got reminded :
we're still someone small in the world,
even if we did something big

Optimist, Pessimist

I'm sure that everyone has heard of this before :
Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining.

Well i'll explain what it means anyways. It means that even a bad
thing has a good thing behind. It sounds so much easier than it's
actually done cause you know when the bad thing is right in your face,
you just can't help and stare back at the bad thing rather than looking
through the bad thing.

Here comes everyone's favorite kind of people--Optimists.
Owh hell yeah everyone will sure to know one or two of them.
They're those people who smile back at their troubles.
They're those people who don't think of consequences.
They're those people who are always on a positive side of the coin.
They tend to dream more and not get stuck into reality so much.
Huzzah!

YAY THEM! How can we not live with them?

Now then there's the other side of that coin--Pessimists.
Aww yeah you know them.
They're the people who always look at the bad side of things.
They're the people who thinks that the after effects.
They're the people who thinks the world will end without a cause.
Ok maybe not the last one but whateverlah.

Yeah see I think pessimist are kinda boring ya know and
pretty bad. They tend to take uncertainties comes out with
bad results. Ya know kinda like if there's this chick you like,
you wanna confess to them but them pessimist will think they'll
get rejected flat down and don't confess in the end.

In everything, there's bound to be good or bad answers.
It takes people with balls of steel to take up on that uncertainty
and brace the challenge. Those without balls will obviously
pass it on not "risking" anything to lose when they can gain too.

So grab life by the balls and kick it up high.
Take chances, ignore them doubts.
Well unless they can bring certain death and all.

Bright Eyes

i love how conor oberst always remind me that i'm not crying alone

Of The Hearts

For those who have found love,
I congratulate you.
May the love burn hotter than the sun,
lasts longer than the time,
more melodic than a bird's tune
and gets better with passing time like wine.
(i know, i'm exaggerating)

For those who lost love,
I'm sorry for you.
May your heart heals better in time,
may the experience make you stronger,
may you remember what it feels to love.

For those who haven't found it yet,
don't give up.
There's one for everyone and you haven't even
meet most of them yet,
do not give up on love.

Everyone loves, even if they dont look like one.