Hold Me Like You'll Never Let Me Go

twix to people who knows where did i took the line from.
so yeah... appreciation day or whatever the hell they call its
is expectedly boring *leansback*
all i did was talk with Louise

Owh well, the main reason of today blog is about... well today
is like my reunion with my old friends... something like that.

first thing in the morning...
nothing has happened.
Which is weird. 1st weird thing is that i woke up early (8.00),
2nd, nobody scolded me to wake up, 3rd i didnt rush for anything.
Well thats for the morning.

Afternoon... well thats a bit rushing. harharahar.
Didnt even bath till like.... 8.00 pm
BUT I DONT SMELL!!!!
incredibly bad

Got 2 open house to look forward to.
after 4... went to the first house...
first house.... full of girls + 1 guy.
Yeah, i know, guys suck.
(wtf, i just gave a bad comment about myself D=)
I chatted and chatted and chatted for so long..
i havent even called them for so long either.
Yeah i'm just that bad.
i guess i missed them.

We laugh, and eat for like... 3 hours straight.
Didnt even realize time flied through.


i guess theyre my closest friends.
I know, all girls.
I'm a pimp lord afterall.


another one. Far left is supposedly my big sis and the one
beside her is my lil sis. The guy beside me is really funny.
He likes to make awkward comments that actually makes sense.
The colourful building on the right is my old school btw.

Yeah the last pic was when i got back home...
Theyre having another one at night but i didnt go.
Should take care of my bros and sis.
harharhar....

somehow we get teh feeling its my final goodbye....
i donnno... i hope its not.

And thats all
Reporter Ali,
*signing out*

Its Much Too Much >_>

uhuh.... screw the people who dont know what rolling is!
this is rolling lah you...you...you...

The modern waffle has its origins in the wafers – very light thin crisp cakes, baked between wafer-irons – of the Middle Ages. ^[7] Wafer irons consisted of two metal plates connected by a hinge, with each plate connected to an arm with a wooden handle. The iron was placed over a fire, and flipped to cook both sides of the wafer. These irons were used to produce a variety of different flat, unleavened cakes (usually from a mixture of barley and oats, not the white flour used today).

In 14th century England, wafers were sold by street vendors called waferers.^[8] The modern waffle is a leavened form of wafer.

"Wafer" and "waffle" share common etymological roots. Wafre (wafer) occurs in Middle English by 1377, adopted from Middle Low German wâfel, with change of l into r. Modern Dutch wafel, French gaufre, and German Waffel, all meaning "waffle", share the same origin. The Dutch form, wafel, was adopted into modern American English as waffle, in the 18th century.^[7][9]

you guys are total *censored* if you thought that was about rolling
this is rolling!!!


and i dont know why but theres suddenly a goddamn a lot
of birthday this month +_+

not that i have anything against them mind you, i love them.
I mean, youre born on that day right?
thats like... the first time you get your soul.

OK, anyways... after Olivia's, theres Mich Lim and Jacqueline.
and yeah, i gave each of them handcrafted stuffs...
almost killed me since Mich Lim and Jakuelyene's is next to each other.
God i slept at 3.... wait thats pretty normal actually.

Right, Mich got a little beforeparty (haha, lame) which i didnt come D=
i want to but damn theres so many stuffs to do on saturday.
andandandandadn they had games and i dont give a damn
about the pork there. I DONT GIVE A DAMN!!!!

i'm kinda surprise the stuffs i presents i gave was cute...
i mean i've been drawing uncute cute stuffs but when i made it
out its cute. Its so hard to understand this cute thing D=
They must have bulky eyes, little body or none at all. Big ears
helps and cute penguin walks somehow helps. Why the hell am i
telling you this? D=

So missed Mich's but they had a surprise attack on Tuesday at break.
No pics cause no cam. Same goes for Jaquelene. Wednesday, no cam,
no nothing. Just some cake fight =3=

and the best part for both of these days is that we had source party!
i wanna try 1.6 though. Sounds fun even though theyre basically the same.
i selfproclaim myself "famaster". lololololol

Badnews? because its suppose to be good news. Appreciation day. Theyre so
boring and all we do is talk talk talk get scolded talk talk talk.

Cookies to people who notice that i spell Jacquelyenes name differently.
Coffee for Muimui though.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!
God damn i feel like i'm writing a novel here =_="

And... Its A Home Run!!!

finals are over~
finally no more studying (not like i actually did)

no more seeing friends "eh, whats the answer..."
no more seeing kah seng suddenly sleeping
no more seeing carmen sleeping at the end
no more zhao suddenly stares blankly
no more rachel suddenly look around and ask answers
no more "i want the power of the cube!"
no more scary stares from Rebecca.... wait i think
thats about all the time... >_>

hmm...
arent i observent.
Anyways... i'd blog about stuffs lah
i'm dont really like to sit in front of my com anymore...
My new speakers sucks i cant change back to the old ones...
no more loud shooting in the middle of the night.
no more those little... you know...
no more late night music.
no more watching at standup comedies
no more gundam videos....

Goddamn it! I'm 16 and i need privacy!!!
Hmm... lesse... last time i blog was about memories...
so that would be a week ago...

so on to this week
Hmm... something speacial...
Owh yeah one i guess.
Olivia's birthday.
presents.. hmm... yeah...
I didnt have much so i decided to make one of those
dolls and put it in a sweet pack.
Yeah i know, at the time i shouldve studied instead of making
little dolls as a birthday gift...
But i cant help it. I prefer giving people handmade stuffs.

Should i post the pic?... nah...
should be Olivia exclusive i think

and... hmm.. today (i mean yesterday)
went to Megamall...
Didnt know i was gonna go there actually.
Planned for some karaoke and bowling but cancelled.
Then planned for some cs action which i dont wanna miss...
But i missed it... GODDAMMIT!!!!!

i'm addicted to it now and i self proclaim myself "famaster"
if you get what i mean >_>

Theres a wall of text this time... i feel like rolling
(no seriously)
*rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls*
*rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls*
*rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls**rolls*

I feel like going karaoke/bowling
Damn you Syaff and Benny!
i'd plan it sometime.... plan it a LOT earlier...
i learned my lesson last time.
But my schedule seems a bit more... tight now...
or maybe i just think its tight.
planning an open house also like last year...
home made BBQ, video games, snacks, unhealthy drinks,
lots of gossiping, hot guys and girls....
but i donno....

gimme your opinion people!!!

ahahaha, i've been bolding text like trying to do rumusan or something
no if you excuse me.... *builds gundam*

Memories... All Alone In The Moonlight...

Cookies to people who guessed where i got the line from.

Yeah... you might think this blog post is gonna sound boring
or sissy or girly or whatever it is in your mind...
But to me.... its a really important thing in my life...
Now and forever....

I'm gonna catogorize this as an emo post.
But i dont know if its an emo post.

It started with me looking through the old pictures all over.
House, phone, cds and the pc....
And i remembered all those time...
I wondered "wow, did all that just went through my life?"
it seems... so close....
And it feels like it was just yesterday.... But days had passed...
god i love the invention of cameras.
Anyways...

It started with me looking at the old photos (why am i repeating this?)
then the next day, English exam... one of the essay title was
Memories....
i suddenly remembered everything...
But i didnt wanna do it, but kept it specially for the blog.
Instead, i did the greatest challenge in my life.
I did about me, being the greatest warrior, fought a dragon
and saved the village. Thats roughly the idea.

Ok lets move on.
Right.... sometimes... when you look into a picture,
you'll cry. You'll smile. You'll remember, the good times
and the bad.... Memories are made out of the good and
bad...

You'll sometimes wish that you could turn back time
and relieve it once more. You'll sometimes wish
you could turn back time to fix it just once.
Just to relive all those time that passed by.



I'd wish i knew them better.
I'd wish we'd be there together.
I'd wish to see them all once more.
But alas, those wish can never be granted.
I believe there is no such thing as pure good or pure evil.
so theres bound to be hate here and there...
but i'll never forget the good times we had.

I left, with the bullet train...
No goodbyes were ever gave out...
I left without a trace...
They never knew...
That was good to me...
But i dont know...
I shoud've left them with something...
But all i left is my heart and memories to them...

From the 1st till 4th moon cycle...
i was kinda quiet. i honestly dont know why.
i think this is the feeling of miss. i never understand it.
i never felt it. i never knew why. it kept me quiet
for 4 cycle of the moon, being the stranger in class.

i wondered why.

when did i open the closed door?
when did i open the wind?
when did i release it all?
i dont know...


To the readers... out there reading this.


I'd like to ask...



Have you ever wondered how'd you get to know each other?
I sometimes do... strangely i never remembered how.
Did it start with a little talk?
Did it start with something i did?
Did it start with something they did?
Did it start out accidently?









Right here...
I wonder....
can i keep it all up?
can i maintain this wonderful bond?
can i maintain this fragile bond?
can i make new bonds?
can i fix this bond?






But my memories wont stop here.
I still have a long way to go.
My life havent ended yet.
God has blessed me to live on.
And I will.
Memories will always be in my mind.
It will always be scarred into my heart.
It shall pin to my skin.
Every pain, every touch, every feel....

It scars deep into me.





Though my mind might forget them.
My skin, my heart, my hands and my eyes will
ache to them. They played a role in my life but their
role will never end.

I will never break the bond.
For this bond. I believe to be the most fragile.
I believe the most beautiful.

People make it fragile.
They remember the bad stuffs somebody did to them
and start hating them.
They forget the good times they had together.
And the bond breaks.

And people tend to remember the things they
made to others and expected something in return.
They start hating them.
And the bond breaks.

How can they break it so easily?
Does their memory did nothing?
Where is the justice of it all?

Alas, this is just an opinion from an unknown individual.

And so i end this.
For my memories are precious.
My cameras are my eyes.
What i see through them is what i see in life.
The camera, is my record of life.

The good, the bad, the ugly, the sad, the laughs....
It all comes into one.
Without the bad, there will be no good.

And at the very last lines,
i stop my types.

This is the Ali, from the heart.
signing out

Tagged ~ Muimui

Tagged By Muimui
too lazy the font colour...

1. What's the relationship of you and her/him ?
Friends , but i wanna make it sounds cooler so.... Advanced friend!


2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him ?
Impressions?.... hmm.... 1st, a girl. 2nd, nice. 3rd, purple lover (>_>)
4th, like spicy stuff and last one is... uhh... i'll just put not boring.

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you
Didi!

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
lesse.... just hanging out i guess, thats memorable enough to me.

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..
i will have some sexy time.

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will..
I'd just make up with her.... wait, thats boring. I'd put yellow stuff all over her stuffs.

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..
One word. Botox.... nah just kidding. (no harsh feelins right?)

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..
No idea. I dont have any reason to hate her

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is ?
No idea. Hanging out still sounds like the best idea, period.

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
Easy, nice and friendly.

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you ?
No idea honestly. I'd hope its good though. Including good looks
=E

12. The character of you for yourself is ?
Have fun while i still can

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
Sometimes, i'm too lazy or think too much.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is ?
Hmm.... No idea but not perfect thats for sure. Most probably is fun to be
around.

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them..
I like you too! Youre all hot people! (and i'm not gay!)


Am i suppose to tag back or something?...
Owh well

Sharkloaners Arr?

the title?
read on.

Once upon a night, when i was out and napping till
dinner. I finished and ran up to finish my art when i notice
i got a text message from Melissa.

"You want buy Hanim a cake? 5 bucks"
i was like, wtf?! sharkloaner arr?
and i asked whats the cake for... you guessed
it, her birthday. I thought like, omg i dont even know had
one!!!!

It was tomorrow, i agreed to pay but still wondered why the
hell is it 5 bucks?

Owh well, not like i usually spend money for a cake.
I looked around stuffs as a present, nothing much though.
Just some Cloud 9s, Coffee Peanut Sweet, Cocoa Beans and the
most delightful blue berry cookie i ever ate.... so far.
Hmm... good enough and i took a shiny sack to put it in...

At school, she came and people greeted happy birthday.
I was hoping they didnt (yet) cause gonna make a surprise later.
Owh well, no plan is foolproof.

Break time, When i was revising (yes, shockingly) Hanim walk past
with her bag behind her packed neatly... She was in sadness... i can feel.

Rachel asked and it was something... unexpected.
Saddened, i though i'd gave her present tomorrow or something
but everyone gave theirs already so i gave mine also.

She walk through the corridor, still not knowing about the cake.
It was in class. Some tried they stop her, but they sucked.
So i lied to her by telling she forgot something in class.
(Its a lie but not really a lie)

And they all came out to say happy birthday.
She let out some tears... i didnt know if it really was tears of joy
like she said... not sure....
I planned for another interview but seeing the circumstances...
i didnt do one...
Owh well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANIM!!!!

Godbless for the tragedy that happened...

Safe Day Raya

translation title if you get it.

anyways its RAYA!!!
when we get cookies,
money, and sizzling hot gi........ gundams!
yeah gundams! *phew*

anyways the raya was nice and smooth,
not the best raya, but certainly not the worst either.
Lets see... this year, we go back to Johor!
man i love Johor, it got like a lot of stuffs there.
I woudnt mind staying there even if its a bit hot.

Every year, my family would take turn to go to
which kampung first so this year is Johor's.

Went there for a long time.
From.... lesse... Monday to Friday.
Yup, that long.
Missed Hanim's Open House and Raja's....
sorry to both of you!

hmm... lesse.... since monday and tuesday was still
puasa month, we puasa like normal except we
buka at 7.03 PM.
yeah a bit earlier. If you wanna know, if you puasa at Atlantica,
you only need to puasa for about 10 minutes.
GWAHAHAHAHHA.

anyways, i wear pelekat (man skirt to help you imagine) the
trip. Monday and Tuesday had nothing special but wait till
you get to Wednesday! thats raya time!

owh yeah, as in any year, i'd send raya sms's (dont know their address)
on the last day of puasa. I purposely sent one to Dickson to see
how he would react.... but no reaction sadly.
I'm quite touched i would say for that some of my
chinese friends actually sent a raya sms...
You know who you are!

Tuesday
Well, nothing special really. Lots of talks
i guess. Owh, and i finally learn how to make ketupats! =D
i always wanted to try to make one and its not as easy as
you think nor it is as hard. GWAHAHAHAHA

The word ADA?
thats my nickname between all of my family members.


anyways on at the night we play with fire!
not a good raya without some fire!


my father side family. Theyre all good and smart
people.

Wednesday
as you all know (or not know)
the first thing we do before raya would be the sembahyang raya.
Granted not long so its all ok i guess.


I think this is the first time i show you a photo
of my family... but i thoink most of you saw them already.

The middle is my grandma. She's a islam chinese

After that, we do the forgiving
stuffs as we all always do... of course duit raya on the side.

I was quite shocked, i got RM50 from my aunt or was it RM70?
doesnt matter but i was shocked. I counted and the total was about...
RM280 or something. Just from my families alone. If youre shocked,
dont be, my family is really big.

We ate something a bit different which is pizza!
Went to The Summit (a department store) with my 2 awesome
cousin. Trust me their awesome!
Open minded, really go out to make stuffs
(they made a drum set for the ps2 to play BeatManis)
Gundam fans, good taste in fashion and is quite well known
to the technologies around them (especially gaming).
I bought a BBDoubleX there! D=


Thursday
Ah, this day is quite awesome
More raya's obviously. Missed Hanim's and Raja's...
kept thinking about it. Then during one of my raya visits,
i got an sms from maxis about some miss call somewhere around
10.00 am... the first thing i thought,
"friggin nigga Maxis! there's no call notice in the phone
and the notice only came 2 hours later?!"

I'd be guessing it was the gang at Hanim's. Got it right.
It was Syaff on the phone with Mum at the side. Steven
was gonna talk to then suddenly, my phone hung up.
Sorry Steve! Looked at the prepaid....
RM0.04.........
didnt knew i called a lot though.
GWAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!

Right after the house that i got the call from,
went to The Summit again...
this time with my families instead of my cousin.
This time we went to gundam shops ONLY!
theres around.... 3 there, but they all only sell gundams
and not their tools. But! some of the gundams there is
cheaper than in KL... one example is the....
STRIKE NOIR GUNDAM I BOUGHT FOR RM160!!!
AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday is the day we all went back.... though the second i came
back it was no resting time... i got more rayas to go.
GWAHAHAHAHA
so you guys are quite lucky to find all those time to study.

well, you guys must be thinking,
"wtf Ali! youre in the middle of the exam and youre blogging?!,
you friggin cow nigga idiot!!!"
*faints*

something like that maybe

anyways, thats all for now
this is Ali!
signing out!